A Returning

I have been away. I have often thought of how to begin this blog again after a long hiatus and then more time would pass and there it stood waiting for me to speak, write, and reach out. The reason for my silence is the same reason for beginning this blog. Living with chronic illness…

For Kaira

For Kaira Come out today And do not hold back your heart gently I have carved a passageway For you to free those moving years Hold your heart like your hand Out the window of a speeding cavalcade Flying by the wind-broke land Come out today And dance as Kaira would Under the tree, in…

The Grand Staircase

As some of you may know, I am also an artist working with mediums such as acrylic, oil, gouache, tempera, oil and soft pastels, bronze and gold leaf, collage, paper, charcoal, and ink.  Most of my paintings involve repeating images, bursts of colors, and dream-like images resembling woven tapestries.  This is the first painting that…

Someday Dedication

Someday Dedication (C. Luepkes, 2014) Seduced by the smell of coffee Guatemala, jazz, and the sound of rain falling in my cupped hand Someday more delicate than a thread You will eventually reach for me Behind the sun setting on Tower Bridge Someday, I’ll see that certain angel carried by the sun Riding like in…

Poem for my Former Self

Poem for my Former Self C. Luepkes (2014) There are these fragments of you in me Your passion, your kindness, and your beautiful dreams Three kinds of melody, I guess I remember those old lessons All of those stories Pregnant and continued Like a canvas stretched across everything Busy, alone, petrified, ecstatic The secrets and…

My Story: After the Accident

It struck me fast and cruelly. That afternoon, just hours before, I took a long drive on a hot May Carolinian day.  Listening to music, hanging my hand out the window and feeling the wind through my fingers, and laughing with my sister were all part of those hours before it happened. Then came the…

For the Brightest Star that Tonight We Cannot See

For the Brightest Star that Tonight We Cannot See C. Luepkes (2014) For the brightest star that tonight we cannot see Blocked by the gentle clouds that will someday clear away Soon we’ll have autumn moons and still nights And you can shine like the Parisian lights Emerge from the night sky with comforted wings…

For Today, A Lot Like Tomorrow

For Today, A Lot Like Tomorrow (C. Luepkes, 2014) 3 blocks away I can hear the brakes of the train Dragging, heaving, and pulling into the station Like excited dogs tugging back on their leash On the first warm day of spring For today, a lot like tomorrow I am those brakes A rambling rhythm…

New Paper Accepted for Publication: Mindfulness-Oriented Recovery Enhancement Reduces Pain Attentional Bias in Chronic Pain Patients

Originally posted on Eric L. Garland, Ph.D.:
My colleague Matthew Howard and I recently had a paper accepted for publication in the internationally-recognized journal, Psychotherapy and Psychosomatics. This paper describes a subset of findings from a randomized controlled trial (RCT) of Mindfulness-Oriented Recovery Enhancement for chronic pain patients who have been prescribed long-term opioid…

Recovering Hope: Life with Chronic Pain

There is no despair so absolute as that which comes with the first moments of our first great sorrow, when we have not yet known what it is to have suffered and be healed, to have despaired and have recovered hope. –George Eliot When was that moment when you buried your old body? When you…