One foot in the real world…

“There is a certain pain that comes from trying to suppress your dreams. If you block it out for long enough, it will grow until you can’t ignore it anymore.”—Sunlight In Winter from “One Foot In The Real World” I’ve been away from my writing and, in reality, a part of myself for a while…

A Returning

I have been away. I have often thought of how to begin this blog again after a long hiatus and then more time would pass and there it stood waiting for me to speak, write, and reach out. The reason for my silence is the same reason for beginning this blog. Living with chronic illness…

For Kaira

For Kaira Come out today And do not hold back your heart gently I have carved a passageway For you to free those moving years Hold your heart like your hand Out the window of a speeding cavalcade Flying by the wind-broke land Come out today And dance as Kaira would Under the tree, in…

Someday Dedication

Someday Dedication (C. Luepkes, 2014) Seduced by the smell of coffee Guatemala, jazz, and the sound of rain falling in my cupped hand Someday more delicate than a thread You will eventually reach for me Behind the sun setting on Tower Bridge Someday, I’ll see that certain angel carried by the sun Riding like in…

Poem for my Former Self

Poem for my Former Self C. Luepkes (2014) There are these fragments of you in me Your passion, your kindness, and your beautiful dreams Three kinds of melody, I guess I remember those old lessons All of those stories Pregnant and continued Like a canvas stretched across everything Busy, alone, petrified, ecstatic The secrets and…

My Story: After the Accident

It struck me fast and cruelly. That afternoon, just hours before, I took a long drive on a hot May Carolinian day.  Listening to music, hanging my hand out the window and feeling the wind through my fingers, and laughing with my sister were all part of those hours before it happened. Then came the…

Today, I Was A Real Girl

Originally posted on Eating Disorders Grow Up:
Pics by Ella Today was one of those functional days. You know, the ones where you actually get stuff done. Maybe other people aren’t particularly proud of themselves for doing laundry or going to the grocery store or doing the dishes, but hot damn, I sure as hell…

For the Brightest Star that Tonight We Cannot See

For the Brightest Star that Tonight We Cannot See C. Luepkes (2014) For the brightest star that tonight we cannot see Blocked by the gentle clouds that will someday clear away Soon we’ll have autumn moons and still nights And you can shine like the Parisian lights Emerge from the night sky with comforted wings…

Taking on the English Channel with Fibromyalgia

In need of inspiration? Katie Pumphrey is conquering two monsters: chronic and widespread pain due to fibromyalgia and the sea. Fibromyalgia is a widespread pain disorder characterized by pain on both sides of the body and usually accompanied by sleep and mood disruption, as well as, headaches and abdominal pain. There currently is no known cause…

Hope is Hanging on the Foot of the Moon Tonight

Hope is Hanging on the Foot of the Moon Tonight C. Luepkes, 2014 My hope is hanging on the foot of the moon tonight Isn’t it beautiful? There it is dangling The substance of dreams Of mind and spirit And what happens in between You know, there is also some sweetness A work in progress…

Between the Birth and Death of the Stars

the exploding galaxy image courtesy of national geographic I once read somewhere that human beings are made of 93 percent stardust.  The main elements that compose our bodies: oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, and nitrogen are manufactured by or fuel these lights that have guided explorers and gathered our deepest wishes.  At the birth of a star,…