One foot in the real world…

“There is a certain pain that comes from trying to suppress your dreams. If you block it out for long enough, it will grow until you can’t ignore it anymore.”—Sunlight In Winter from “One Foot In The Real World” I’ve been away from my writing and, in reality, a part of myself for a while…

Exhibiting Pain Home

A fellow chronic pain blogger, member of our community, and PhD candidate has created a research project entitled “Exhibiting Pain” and would appreciate your participation. “Exhibiting Pain” is a research project designed to analyze how creativity can help to communicate the affects of living with long-term physical pain. The exhibition includes art, textiles, and poetry and its aim…

A Returning

I have been away. I have often thought of how to begin this blog again after a long hiatus and then more time would pass and there it stood waiting for me to speak, write, and reach out. The reason for my silence is the same reason for beginning this blog. Living with chronic illness…

My Body is a Full-Time Job

If you live with a chronic illness, you may have noticed that you work several jobs. Perhaps, you work full-time or part-time which is your first job. If you are a student, than classes and time spent studying is your second professional obligation. Your third occupation involves family, chores, and necessary errands. However, with chronic…

Blame it on My Body: Chronic Pain and Feelings of Failure

Everyday acceptance of chronic pain necessitates that we reflect our attention away from pain to the non-pain facets of life. We go to work, go to school, take care of children, and have social lives. But what happens when we miss our deadlines or maybe an exam? Maybe we have to rely more on our…

Why the shame with chronic pain, anyway?

  On Shame The nature of chronic pain is a camouflaged illness. Chronic pain patients don’t look “sick” and; therefore, they encounter disbelief, suspicion, and stigma from others placing the burden of proof on the person experiencing pain. There is also a level of self-stigmatization that arises. As we become aware of the undesirable stereotypes…

Poem for my Former Self

Poem for my Former Self C. Luepkes (2014) There are these fragments of you in me Your passion, your kindness, and your beautiful dreams Three kinds of melody, I guess I remember those old lessons All of those stories Pregnant and continued Like a canvas stretched across everything Busy, alone, petrified, ecstatic The secrets and…

Reducing Chronic Pain Through Meditation

A great article came out last week in The Atlantic detailing the therapeutic effects of meditation.  The article, written by Brian Steiner, discusses one woman’s familiar journey with persistent pain and then delves deeper into how meditation alleviates chronic pain both physiologically and psychologically. Particularly, meditation alters the level of activation in the primary somatosensory…

My Story: After the Accident

It struck me fast and cruelly. That afternoon, just hours before, I took a long drive on a hot May Carolinian day.  Listening to music, hanging my hand out the window and feeling the wind through my fingers, and laughing with my sister were all part of those hours before it happened. Then came the…

Today, I Was A Real Girl

Originally posted on Eating Disorders Grow Up:
Pics by Ella Today was one of those functional days. You know, the ones where you actually get stuff done. Maybe other people aren’t particularly proud of themselves for doing laundry or going to the grocery store or doing the dishes, but hot damn, I sure as hell…